me and my good fwens

salam sume

yes..I do feel the blast yesterday.and i learn a lot of things in life. Plus I do express my feeling how I feel demotivated in my life and what most worrying me for this time plus what I do aim for life whick I have no idea why i told him my own personal. seriously even he just be silent and listen but I do feel sooOOo relieve. yeah he do put a lil bit advise for me and ask me to move forward in future. owh at least me myself will start to think back and revise my mission and vision in life, *owh perhaps.*

talking about mission, i do impress for him. Yeay he is currently aim for married next feb'11 and yet still struggling to save money for his wedding and engagement also, which happen after raya. * eh, with his galfren of course!* And he do discipline himself to cut down all of his expenses and sacrife all the entertainment in his life for aiming his mission. owh i feel WoW! even me myself still not ready to let go my teenage life *teenage ke?* ahaks!
I still not satisfied what I want in my life and I love trying lots2x things in life. pendek kata, i still not enjoy my life to the fullest due to family restriction. But at least, he really serious in his relationship and want a good ending with his galfren. He himself doesnt mind to go through all the sacrification and the barriers because she really love his galfrens and do appreciate her. *how sweet* he such a good man. i glad to be his fwens and have such a good fwens like him.

owh ok enough with him. back to me. Actually I do feel sad because we have been such a good fwens for such a short period only and suddenly we have to create a barrier right after his engagement and marriage of course! hurmm.. he have been such good advisor and good consultants to me but he promise me we still meet up but have to bring his galfrens * a wife in future* ok, i seriously don't mind actually IF we just meet up for borak2 kosong and makan minum or else ke but I feel I still really need him to be a good advisor and motivator if I have a problems in future. I do not simply talk bout' my probs.. even to my best fwens *galfrens i mean*. I do appreciate a man's perceptive about life plus he so matured in handlings anything when it's related to complication in life especially when it come to Islamic related. *i know ppl will hard to understand but it not simply easy to let a good fwens simply go like that* but afterall, i dont mind and will take time to understand a point of change in life and hey! I do fell happy for him! at least finally he found his soulmate, not like me! *as yet I been friend with him from the beginning of his single life after break with a gurl who happen to be my bestfrens, he flirt with the other gals, and until he meet his current galfrens* ahaks! it's funny when I do refresh back. He used to complaint he really do need a life partner to complete his life. Now he found his soulmate, of course he doesnt want to waste anytime to be with her!

Oh no, it not just stop that. We also talking about Roslin Hashim case with Raja Azmi. How the both married and Roslin's wife cannot accept the close relationship between them. how ironic! But somehow Raja Azmi is the one who introduce the wife to Roslin and how she manage to make them divorce at the end? *some source say to hide their scandals perhaps?* owh I do discuss this thingy to him and yet he impress how i manage to know those gossips at the 1st place! *aiyooo...it obvious rite and have been in front page in all d newspapers in Malaysia* But I already knew the answer actually, he seem like to be like the others that say they should avoid those speculation at the 1st place and once both of them meet their partner in life, they should end up your close relationship simply like that and if both of you want to continue, brings your partner if both of u want to meets up! seeeeeeeeeeee!! i knew it. it's not easy to bring the stranger into your deep conservations that both of u used to be b4! yes it not easy and if do, it will take time as people changes as life changes. And we do need * can I put forcing* to accept those things that be written in life that one day everyone will have your own life aite?

owh maybe i just need to think in positive way and move on aite. maybe I just want to make it complicated even yet just create a big issues here. Yes fwens come and go. perhaps I will meet a good fwens like him *even I know no one can replace our good fwens* or else I will meet up my partner in life in future plus a really good fwens of mine that I can share almost everything about us. Aminnnn....


yeay...perhaps, maybe?